Jellyfish.

I've been feeling kind of aimless as of late. I guess i never really noticed it until i started to get sick of it. Kind of just washed around like waves. but i never really noticed, because i wasn't fighting it. Now that i'm trying to fight it though, i'm realizing how much i suck at fighting. I'm noticing how much the waves are affecting me, how little power i have to find them. I've always been a self-proclaimed "go-with-the-flow" kind of guy, but this is getting ridiculous. My greatest strengths are also my greatest weaknesses. So i guess i'm just trying to figure out how to get some direction. I want to do some soul-searching. But i also want to keep all the deadlines and readings and responsibilities that i've been missing in check.

and through all this, attempt to remember what life is all about. the verse i keep going back to is John 15:5

"I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing."

so i guess i'm not really a jellyfish on my own, more like a stick. sticks don't even have arms.

i'd better do that reading now.